First Time, a little bit about my life

Hmm, how do i start one of these? I really have no idea I've never even read a blog before. I guess it starts like this :]

My name is kelsee, but if youre reading this you probly already know that. If you bothered to read my about me you also know that i got the idea to start a blog from an episode of house. it just seemed like a cool way to vent about my problems and maybe hear some responses from a non biased source. anyways i should probly tell you about my life now.

I'm 18 and i live with my dad in san diego. my whole life its been just me and him and on some weekends my sister. My parents were never married, i dont even think they dated but i do know they met in jail. As you most likely guessed, we didnt have the best relationship. My dad is a recovering alcoholic and even though hes been sober since before i was born he still has the disease. we fought alot, verbally and physically. he had no problem smacking me around a little unless my sister was there. he gave her everything, and still does. i suppose its because he feels bad for not always being there for her since she lives in a different city with her mom. Yes we have different moms, but mine was in prison most of my life. I'll talk about her later though. My dad William had no idea how to raise a child. Have you read a book titled "a child called it"? that was basically my dads childhood. out of all his siblings he was the one that got beatten and tortured. so i can see where he gets it from and i no longer blame him for the things he did to me. My dad and i have been through alot in the last year or so, but now that I'm living back at home with him i can appreciate all the good things hes done for me.

Enough about Bill, Lets talk about Yvette, thats my moms name. I still dont know exactly how i feel about her. i know she still drinks all day every day and i know shes not clean. she was in prison untill i was 15 and the only contact I'd had with her was one letter she wrote me from jail. Around christmas time my dad and i had a huge fight and he kicked me out and sent me to live with my aunt julie back in ventura. My mom lives in oxnard which is pretty close to there. So of course she found out and got in contact with me through myspace of all things haha i saw her a few times and was really disappointed, but i still talk to her on the phone when she calls because i know it makes her happy.

Im not going to put too much about my past on here because i want this blog to be a step forward for me. so from now on all my posts will be about things that are currently goping on in my life. forget the past lets focus on the present :]