Falling into place

Well I got what I wished for, today was deffinitly better than yesterday! Ever since I moved back home it's like my life is falling back into place. OJ woke me up this morning by just knocking on my door haha yes I was still sleeping at 1130. So we hung out for a while and then Mojgan came over. She is my final best friend, now I've had the chance to write about all of them :] we pretty much just made bracelets and talked for a while untill they had to leave, but it was great to see them.

After we parted ways Whitney came to pick me up. Whitney and I hang out almost every day, mostly because she has a car so were actually able to hang out haha but she finished her last class today for high school!!! Yay Whitney! I wonder if she knows I'm proud of her... She is one of the most responsible people i know. Hopefully as time goes by and we get closer I'll be able to add her to my list of best friends. Shes pretty much the greatest person to talk to, thats why I renamed her empathy :]

Kind of an old picture, it was from last summer, but that would be Whitney on the left and me in the middle. I need to take some more recent pictures with her haha :] So all we really did today was sit in her car with this guy Hector that was my neighbor when I was about 8!!! What a small world this is. We just talked and listened to music mostly, and Whitney dropped me off at my friend Joey's house. Thats when things got interesting. Joey and I liked eachother around September last year, but he started getting in trouble and got sent away and I didnt hear from him untill just a few days ago. So I went to his house today thinking everything was over and we would just catch up and be friends again, but we ended up admiting that we both never really got over eachother. Now that were both trying to get our lives together were going to start hanging out more often and do it all right this time :] Oh and did I mention he's absolutely gorgeous?

The tattoo on his chest says "one day at a time" which is exactly how i need to start handling life and all the stressfull things being thrown at me. At least I got to come home and watch LOST! I can't believe there are only 2 more episodes left what will I do with my life when it's over for good? This show has been my world since 7th grade.

Haha yeah I'm a nerd. Oh, and some other good news! I think I found a ride to ETD Pop!!!!!! It's a rave in San Francisco, I bought two tickets for Amys birthday and we were going to make it a road trip, but now that were not friends I had two tickets and no ride. The best part is that the guy I'm giving the other ticket to in exchange for a ride is a guy Amy used to be obsessed with! hahahahahaha oh revenge can be so simple and so satisfying sometimes :]

A day of surprises

This morning i had to wake up early, just to keep falling back asleep. Beacause my dad needed to get that surgery that all grown ups get when theyre 50, and i was his ride home. I was so shocked to see what he really looked like all drugged out on the doctors office beds.

Hahahaha hes making a funny face on purpose dont worry! my dad is hillarious. So we stopped to get lunch on the way back at Robeks in RB and i applied for a job there :] then when i got home i applied at blockbuster and target. i hope i get a job soon because then i'll be able to get a car. Anyways, my friend OJ that i havent seen in forever hits me up to go to the gym. i was so happy to hear from her!!! So she talked me into going to a zumba class at 24 hr fitness.

Hahaha this is OJ :] she is also on my tiny list of best friends. And she was the funniest thing in zumba class hahaha wow i need to go again tomorrow. And were planning a sleep over for friday ;D haha wow... but thats not all!!! Even though i was tired i decided to hang out with my friend Whitney at the bowling ally. So when we got there i saw ANOTHER long lost friend of mine that I'd been meaning to catch up with. Wow i was so happy to see him :] But he was there on a date so Whitney and i left to go pick up one of her friends, Matt. Matt is pretty cute in my eyes. mostly its his personality that i like.

So today was overall, awesome :]

Hopefully tomorrow will be just as good :]

adventures at the waterfall

So yesterday i went to the mall with my friend Brian who is also my prom date and i finally picked out a dress! its not that great but its only $30 so my dad agreed to buy it :]

Today was a whole nother story though!!!! i went on an adventure with a friend i havent seen in a while, Aurora. It was great to reconnect with her. My boyfriend Alex came along too but i broke up with him when he dropped me off at home, more about that later. Our adventure was awesome still! We walked three miles into PQ canyon to this waterfall that Aurora and I usually ride bikes to.

Beautiful right? haha it was we had so much fun climbing on the rocks and then we saw a frog!!!! so we spent the next THREE HOURS just trying to catch frogs haha we even attempted to make a net out of 2 sticks and a plastic bag that i took from the trash haha we never caught one but were planning to go back with a net and hopefully ill have a new pet :] the waterfall is so amazingly beautiful and there are all these indents in the rocks that are almost shaped like thrones.

haha thats me and my Jim Morrison shirt that Wil gave me for my birthday :] I love Wil he's probobly one of my best friends and one of the only things i miss about living with my aunt in Ventura. I never see him now that I'm back home :[ oh well that can't keep us from being friends. We always joke about how were going to get married one day and have thousands of pets haha

Thats my Wil :] oh and did i mention he's also 16? haha that and the fact that he lives in Westlake are the only reasons were just friends, but i can honestly say that i love him and consider him my best friend.

Hopefully tomorrow will be as amazing as today was :]

Oh yeah about Alex... I basically just admitted to him that I see him as more of a friend than a boyfriend, there was just no spark to it. He took it pretty well and said he felt kinda the same way.

Hooray for unpainful breakups!!!!

shoppinggggg

about to go tux/dress shopping with my prom date brian :]
should be fun except i dont have any money for a dress :/
oh well at least ill have a good time
prom isnt for another week so ill have time to find a dress i can borrow from someone

Today i plan too:

Go tanning with an old friend, OJ :] she should be here soon
and then im having a relaxing movie night with Lavanya my "big sister" from the big brothers big sisters club.
i really want to watch iron man again haha i saw the midnight showing last night and it was awesome :]
Ive been under so much stress lately i hope this calms me down

First Time, a little bit about my life

Hmm, how do i start one of these? I really have no idea I've never even read a blog before. I guess it starts like this :]

My name is kelsee, but if youre reading this you probly already know that. If you bothered to read my about me you also know that i got the idea to start a blog from an episode of house. it just seemed like a cool way to vent about my problems and maybe hear some responses from a non biased source. anyways i should probly tell you about my life now.

I'm 18 and i live with my dad in san diego. my whole life its been just me and him and on some weekends my sister. My parents were never married, i dont even think they dated but i do know they met in jail. As you most likely guessed, we didnt have the best relationship. My dad is a recovering alcoholic and even though hes been sober since before i was born he still has the disease. we fought alot, verbally and physically. he had no problem smacking me around a little unless my sister was there. he gave her everything, and still does. i suppose its because he feels bad for not always being there for her since she lives in a different city with her mom. Yes we have different moms, but mine was in prison most of my life. I'll talk about her later though. My dad William had no idea how to raise a child. Have you read a book titled "a child called it"? that was basically my dads childhood. out of all his siblings he was the one that got beatten and tortured. so i can see where he gets it from and i no longer blame him for the things he did to me. My dad and i have been through alot in the last year or so, but now that I'm living back at home with him i can appreciate all the good things hes done for me.

Enough about Bill, Lets talk about Yvette, thats my moms name. I still dont know exactly how i feel about her. i know she still drinks all day every day and i know shes not clean. she was in prison untill i was 15 and the only contact I'd had with her was one letter she wrote me from jail. Around christmas time my dad and i had a huge fight and he kicked me out and sent me to live with my aunt julie back in ventura. My mom lives in oxnard which is pretty close to there. So of course she found out and got in contact with me through myspace of all things haha i saw her a few times and was really disappointed, but i still talk to her on the phone when she calls because i know it makes her happy.

Im not going to put too much about my past on here because i want this blog to be a step forward for me. so from now on all my posts will be about things that are currently goping on in my life. forget the past lets focus on the present :]